More Lessons From Tiger

I had a mildly harrowing flight today off of Tiger Mt.

Conditions were questionable, from either North or South launch.

On the South launch, winds were cycling from 3-15 MPH, driven mostly by sun-heated atabatic flow, in cycles lasting about two minutes long. In the lulls, however, the wind was blowing backwards from the North from 1-2 MPH, for about 30 second intervals.

On North launch, which was more in the shade, the winds were only 1-3 MPH, but were also alternating directions about every minute.

Kristen and I had hiked up to the top, and there were no other pilots on launch. That alone was a big clue, and I was seriously considering just hiking back down with my wing. Instead, we waited quite a while and the cycles on South launch got lighter and farther apart.

Eventually, it was light enough on South that I figured I could launch. However, on set-up, I still alternated between having a respectable “wall” in my wing, only to have it collapse and blow over from the rear. I was waiting for a good lull, then planned to just get out of there in that window. It was not a day I would have preferred to launch, but I kept asking myself “is it safe?” The answer kept coming back “It’s questionable.” So I waited some more, then decided to launch off of South.

Well, the sink right after launch was pretty bad. I ended up hugging the ground for way too long, gaining altitude only as the ground dropped, then sinking back again for probably 500 yards down the mountain. I was airborne this whole time, but never more than 30 feet above the ground, and some times as low as 10 feet over the trees. Mentally, I was thinking about evasive-maneuvers. “Look for the opening” I kept telling myself. Look for the spot where the ground dropped away the most, or where I had the most clearance from trees. Meanwhile, my wing kept suffering from momentary collapses on one side or the other, making that tell-tale FWOP noise. All the while, I dare not look up to see it, since my eyes were so focused on steering a path to open air and avoiding the trees. My brain was on over-drive.

But eventually, I did clear the last of the trees, mostly because the hill dropped off precipitously, and not because I flew out or over anything. But now even with over 100 of feet of clearance, I was still in some pretty bad sink and I was concerned that I would just barely make it to the bottom of the mountain, probably landing in the swimming pool at the nudist colony at the base. In fact, it was on my mind as an alternate landing zone because everything else was worse. I needed more altitude to get around the horn to the right and pointed towards the primary landing zone.

Eventually, I did manage to get enough vertical clearance to turn right, and I could see what was going on: the battle between a gentle North flow, and South atabatic flow. I should have gone off of the North launch, or else decided to walk. Nonetheless, I still had to make it to the LZ, and altitude was quite low. I thought I might land in the big swamp south of the LZ, but that would actually be OK. When I got closer, I saw that all three windsocks at the LZ were pointing different directions, with the highest and most prominent one indicating the wind was from the South. On the bright side, that wind was taking me directly towards the landing zone. On the other hand, I find landing to the South more difficult because of the high trees on the North end of the field.

I set up for landing, pointing South, with appropriate clearance for those trees. Unfortunately, I didn’t have forward penetration through the wind. I was staring at the tree with the windsock maybe 30 feet away both below and to my left. The sock was blowing straight out, and I was completely stationary in all directions – both vertical and horizontal. I knew that if the wind died or shifted, that my margin of separation was inadequate. So for the first time, I had to use my speed-bar to sacrifice altitude in an attempt to gain the forward speed necessary to get in front of the trees. I had used it once before at much higher altitude as part of my training, but this was the first time I used it out of necessity.

While it did let me penetrate forward of the trees and closer to the LZ, I did not want to hold too much speed-bar with winds that twitchy. Remember that all three socks pointed in different directions, so once I had cleared those trees in the south-wind, I was now over the LZ with West-wind. The problem is that the LZ is a football field long from North to South, but only a swimming-pool wide from East to West, with power-lines and a highway on the West. Of course, there is a mountain and trees on the East, so South-West was the way to go splitting the distance between the power lines and the swamp.

I had descended to maybe 15 feet above the ground and was ready to flare right where I wanted to be, but then I got a big updraft which took me back up to about 40’ amidst the screaming beeps of my variometer. I wanted to just pick a straight line and stick with it rather than making big changes that close to landing, but the conditions sucked! I was not about to pull “big-ears,” since the rapid-switching meant I wanted full control of my wing. I did manage to eventually sink back down to 10’ again, sinking very slowly with a ground speed of near zero. I made a slight flare, followed by deliberately running forward, then turning and a rapidly killing my wing. I was on the ground, and I was fine.

The entire flight lasted probably less than 4 minutes. A normal no-wind flight takes closer to 8 minutes. While it was not a flight that I would care to repeat, I was quite pleased that I had an array of skills and tricks at my disposal to manage a safe journey. I’m also grateful for the opportunity to have a “learning” flight I can draw upon for the future.

Catch a Tiger By Its Tailwind

Today was my first solo flight off of Tiger Mountain, and it was quite an event.

The day began with some additional practice kiting on the South end of Lake Sammamish. The wind was rather erratic, sometimes from the South, and sometimes from the West. That made practice and control a bit more difficult, but it was also a realistic environment in that even at launch the wind direction can frequently change. When the wind began to die down to almost nothing, I practiced forward launches.

Normally, one launches by facing the wing, with your back in the intended direction of travel. The advantage is that you can see the wing as it rises, and make corrections in tension, brakes, and the speed and direction you are running as the wing dictates. Then, once the wing is up and over head, you turn around, face forward, and keep running into launch.

In a forward launch, you start out by facing forward, with the wing to your back. Your arms are outstretched with all of the risers draped evenly across your forearms. Then, with a quick and even motion, you start pulling the wing forward, which causes it to rise up and over head. The advantage is that you don’t have to turn around, but the disadvantage is that you cannot see the wing and instead have to rely almost entirely on the way it feels as you pull it forward and up. Reverse launches are better for higher winds, and forward launches are better for light to no wind conditions.

So when we traveled to the top of Tiger Mountain later in the afternoon, I was glad for my practice launching forward, since the wind was rapidly dying down due both to the setting sun, and that some significant cloud-cover had just come in.

Yaro, my instructor, had asked what I thought of the conditions and how I felt. I told him that I was nervous. “Nervous” would actually be an understatement, but that’s what I told him. He gave some speech about why I should not be nervous. He said that it was no different than practicing at the lake and that I was not here to launch. He said I was just supposed to get the wing up and under control, and only then to consider whether I wanted to launch or not. Nonetheless, I was still “nervous,” and that was not going to go away regardless of the truth of what he said.

Ultimately, however, he was not there to coach me off the mountain. He was there to impart the skills necessary for me to make my own decisions regarding how to make a safe launch. I would only go when I was good and ready, and when I felt safe enough and comfortable enough to start hurling myself forward toward the edge of an ever increasingly steep slope, 1,570 feet above the valley below, and out into the wild blue yonder. Except that this was Seattle, and it was actually the wild gray yonder, but that’s beside the point.

Eventually there was a brief puff of wind maybe 3 miles an hour and I knew that it was not going to get any better as the conditions began to deteriorate for the evening. And so I began to run. My eyes were fixed upon the horizon and I could hear the WHOOSH of the wing coming up from behind me. I could also feel the pressure upon my harness and sense the angle of the wing based on where the risers lay in my hand as I continued my forward journey.

There came a point when I knew that the wing was directly overhead and stable, and, without stopping for a moment, I knew that I was now committed to continuing the launch. Had anything gone wrong, I still could have aborted, but all systems were GO and my little feet were pushing me towards that precipice with full conviction and force. At last I was airborne, but far from safe and secure. My feet kept running and running despite there being no ground beneath them. That was a good thing, because for the first 25-feet of my flight, I was no more than a few feet off of the ground before the mountain all but disappeared beneath me and I began to enter cleaner, more open air. As it was, I still picked my feet up too soon in desperation to get out of there.

Over my radio, I could hear Yaro telling me to “Relax. Relax. And BREATHE!” It was not until that moment that I realized that while I was not really holding my breath, I still needed to exhale for the whole breathing thing to really work. I let out such a gasp that I was sure it affected my airspeed, but at last I began to breathe more normally.

So now I could actually begin to think about my flight plan. Straight out, away from the mountain, turn right at the nudist colony, and then start looking for the landing zone on the right. Mind you, I was way too high to actually see anything at the nudist colony except for their swimming pool, but quite frankly, that was more than enough for me.

My flight path took me through a few bumps, and despite knowing to expect them, they still shook me up quite a bit on my maiden high-launch voyage. It was only when I remembered that those bumps were probably thermals that I started to circle around them. That was followed almost immediately with elation and surprise as I realized “Oh my goodness!! I’m actually going UP!! WOW! This is incredible!!”

By that time I was plenty far off the ground and maybe 1000 feet away from the side of the mountain. Yet no matter how far away I was, any 360-degree turn had me facing the mountain at least once and I did NOT like the sight of a mountain heading in my general direction. Whereas Yaro flew within 25 feet of the trees when we were on Tandem, my own comfort zone was threatened with anything less than 500 feet.

In the mean time, I knew that I needed to use my altitude to practice some maneuvers and to get comfortable with the wing and harness because I had no idea what my wing could do. Well, the real issue wasn’t what the wing, but rather the constraints imposed by my own fear and staying within my meager skill-level.

Still, I made sure that I did a few complete turns to the right, and a few to the left. That’s when I realized that my harness is probably too big for me. I know that you are supposed to shift your weight from one side to the other, but as far as I can tell, your tuchas is not supposed to slosh from one side of the harness to the other in the process. I knew that I could tighten that up a little bit, but that would require letting go of the control toggles to grab the webbing for the buckle adjustment. Cognitively, I knew that there was no way for it to release under pressure, but the very notion of touching anything even related to my harness was just WAY to scary for me at that point.

OK, be calm. Breathe. Relax. Now sloooooly, let go of the control surfaces. There. See? The wing can fly just fine without any help from me, thank you. Conversely, anything that might go wrong would therefore have to be my fault — so be careful for goodness sakes! So I grabbed the buckle and gave it a tug. Nothing. Again. Nothing. So I wailed on it and it tightened up a bit. Unfortunately, that also shook the wing and had my hands racing for those control toggles while my butt cheeks slammed shut tighter than a steel vault.

Around that time, I was heading out of visual range of the launch site and Yaro called on the radio to another instructor named Lawrence at the landing zone (LZ) that he should be able to see me. Lawrence said that he could not see me. In a deep Czech accent as thick as paste, Yaro said “Uh oh… Vhere iz Ahshley?” I knew exactly where I was! I was half a mile south of the LZ, directly between the highway and the power-lines, dangling 25 feet below a gigantic piece of gold-colored nylon the size of a VW microbus! How could I possibly be invisible? I wanted to scream “Here I am! Up here!” but I knew they could not hear me. I though about pushing the button on my radio, but I was not about to let go of those control toggles again after what just happened moments before. Instead, I just kept flying towards the LZ, and then Lawrence acknowledged that he had me on visual and began guiding me down.

Now, the landing pattern at Tiger Mountain is really not all that complicated. When facing North, there is a mountain on the East, and a highway with power-lines on the West. The North end is covered in blackberry bushes that precede some tall trees, and the South end has lots of bushes. In the middle is this great big field with wind-socks all along the side and a cone that screams “land here” to everybody from above. The wind was blowing stiffly from the North so I flew down-wind along the side of the mountain, going well past the edge of the LZ before making a right turn onto my base-leg, followed by another right turn over the power-lines as I started lining up for my final approach.

Lawrence was on the radio helping me out when he told me that while on final, the wind had just switched directions. Now, rather than landing into a slight headwind from the North, I was actually flying across the top of the runway with a stiff tailwind from the South. Normally, a good pilot would use any number of tricks to quickly bleed off altitude or turn around to face the other way, except that I was not a good pilot. This was my very first major flight, and I could see that I was going to run out of runway before touching down. That’s when I realized that I was so focused on the end of the runway that I had forgotten to put my landing gear down! I was still sitting in my harness, rather than having pushed my way out to extend my legs to start running. I quickly stood up, barely touched the ground with my feet, and promptly fell backwards onto my rump just 6 inches away from the blackberry bushes at the end of the runway. My wing, however, kept going and landed on top of them, thus requiring a bit of extrication before I could leave the field.

If nothing else, however, it meant that I was out of the way for the remaining pilots who were still trying to land. By that time, the other pilots had turned and were landing towards the South. Unfortunately, most gliders only go about 15 MPH when flying full speed, and the wind was now over 20MPH. That meant that pilots were landing directly into the wind, and still traveling backwards over the ground. That’s when I got to see some of those altitude-losing tricks I just mentioned, like “Big Ears”, “Speed Bars”, and tugging on the C-Risers. These were experienced pilots, exercising great skill while trying to control their crafts safely to the ground in weather which was rapidly becoming cold and unpleasant.

Another minute later and I had my wing stuffed into a sack as I started walking towards my car.  “Any one you can walk away from is a good one,” Dad used to tell me. Perhaps that’s true, but I left the field with a massive combination of gratitude for a safe journey, a deep appreciation for the skill needed to participate in this sport safely, a sense of accomplishment for my first mountain flight, and an awareness of a budding addiction to paragliding that I can only hope will stay with me for years to come. My feet may have come back down to earth, but my head and heart were clearly still up in the clouds.

If the Snake Rings, Don’t Answer It!

Many are the times where I have been hiking or kayaking throughout the Snoqualmie region and noticed various airborne craft with people dangling precariously below.  Sometimes it was a paraglider, others it was a hang-glider, but in all cases, there was something about watching the freedom of their movement through the air which was quite intoxicating.  I kept telling myself “Someday, that looks like fun.”

Further compounding my interest was that my brother had taken up the sport with extreme passion, and kept sending me spectacular photographs taken from his aerial perch several thousand feet above the ground.  But the real kicker was when I was in South Africa for his wedding, and he managed to hook me up with a friend of his for a brief but incredibly exhilarating adventure in a tandem paraglider.  It only took a few moments in the air, and I knew for certain that it was only a matter of time before I got into the sport for myself.

*  *  *

That day came just this past weekend at a course with Aerial Paragliding in Cashmere, Washington.  I’ve been thinking about it ever since.

The day started out with just myself and one other student working with a fellow named Chris, who was our instructor.  There were other students there too, but we were the only two beginners.

After orientation to the parts of the glider and harness, we practiced building walls and bringing the wing up over our heads.  “Building a wall” means taking the paraglider and laying it out so that it is as spread-out as it can be.  Then the process continues by letting the wind fill the wing with air, then letting it settle back down to the ground again.  You have a “wall” when you have the glider fully inflated, neatly laid out, and at the end of all of the lines that lead back to the harness.

Once you have a wall, you can start kiting.  That’s when you pull on that wall with a bit of wind into the wing, then WWHHOOOOSH!  The entire contraption lifts off of the ground and starts heading over your head.  Kiting is when you can get it into that position and keep it there through the proper application of pressure on the appropriate lines without having the wing drag you around the field too badly.

Since I had already done some that with Yaro, through Skyco Sports a few days earlier,  I did not need as much instruction with basic kiting, and was able to spend the time practicing instead. We did that for about an hour or so, then we headed up to a place called “Whisper Point”, where we would start running down our first hill.

Before we could do that, however, we had to perform a flight pre-check.  This was done each and every time before launch, and consisted of “R1234RST”:

  • Reserve chute. Do you know where it is?  Is it where it needs to be?
    (We weren’t using reserves because we were not going to be high enough to use them even if we wanted to.  Besides that, we had no idea how to use them anyway).
  • One chin-strap buckle on the helmet, fastened and secure
  • Two carabineers holding the wing to the harness, both locked and secure.
  • Three buckles of the harness, all fastened and secured.
  • Four corners of the wing spread out and ready for flight, with lines straight and untangled.
  • Radio.  Does it work?  Can you hear instructions when airborne?
  • Stirrup.  Do you have one leg in front, and one behind, so that you can push into your seat once airborne without pulling on your wing?  (Imagine pulling on the yolk of an airplane while trying to move your seat forward… not a good idea.)
  • Tops and Turn.  Are the tops of your risers in the right position to permit a turn to the forward position once your wing is aloft?

So then finally, we started with some gentle-slopes, running while pointing down-hill, and eventually hoping to go airborne. My natural tendency while running down hill was to look at the ground in case I should trip or fall.  However, it really helped to  stare out at the horizon instead because the moment I felt unsure of my footing was actually just as I was about to take off.

Without a shadow of a doubt, that’s when the fun really started — the moment when conditions were right and I was able to go completely airborne. It was absolutely awesome. Of course, in the midst of trying to enjoy the ride, my mind was alternating between “YES!” and “Oh crap!! What the hell am I doing?” The flight lasted probably close to a minute, maybe 150 yards long, and was over way too soon.

I had a slight sensation of being on a zip-wire, except that there was no wire directing my path, my path was far from straight, and all I knew about my landing site was that it was “down that way, wherever it happened to be when I lost altitude.

While flying, I kept my arms rather stiff.  OK, they were out-stretched and rigid, and it wasn’t helping. I tended to grossly over-correct for everything, resulting in a pendulum motion – both forward and back, as well as left to right. Once on the ground, I recognized it as the exact same behavior that kayak students make when learning to steer.  Not knowing what to do, I was doing everything, rapidly, and way to hard.

After bunching up my wing in a rosette, I had to hike back up the hill to do it again. A rosette is when you grab all the lines in front, right where they clip into the harness, then start coiling all of the lines as a group. The process takes up all the slack, and results in the corners of the wing being brought in towards the center, making a gigantic “rose” that is held in place by the lines. At that point, the entire contraption is tossed over the shoulder, and you can start walking with it. If you can imagine one of those renaissance-period puffy gowns that go out really far, then quadruple that, you kind of get the picture. Every step results in the whole contraption being jostled about and making a cacophony of rustling noises. With the sun at my back and an assortment of colored nylon surrounding my entire body, I think it ends up looking more like a peacock than a rose, but that’s just what it’s called.

*  *  *

My second flight did not go nearly as well. While setting up for launch, I’m not sure what I did wrong, but it was definitely not what I wanted. I ended up with the wing going up from the ground, over my head, and then down to the ground, where it began to drag me across the dirt and grass, face first. My first thought was “Well, THIS definitely sucks!” That was followed almost immediately by “Pull the breaks!!”

In the end, I was only dragged about 10 feet, and I was not moving that fast. Nonetheless, it served as a valuable lesson that there is quite a bit more to this sport than I am going to pick up all at once, and this is going to take a LOT of practice.

After recovery from my drag, I got set up again for launch, raised the wing over head, took a few steps down the hill, then WHOOSH!  I was not only airborne, but had very rapidly gained a considerable bit of altitude.  Well, maybe it was only 20 feet, but for my second flight, that was a lot.

My arms were much more relaxed this time, and I was able to keep my focus more on the horizon as I traveled down the valley. Part of me just wanted to scream out loud, except for the fact that nearly all of my attention was dedicated to focusing on everything that was going on around me: The wind, the shape of the ground, my forward speed and altitude, how far I was from the two hills on either side of the valley, and trying to figure out where I was actually going to land. While I knew the line on which I would land, I had absolutely no idea how far down that line I would travel before touching back down to the ground again. Imagine traveling in a car with a good bit of speed, letting off the accelerator, and trying to figure out how far you will travel before your speed bleeds off. This was basically the same thing, except that the whole thing was in the air and coming to a stop meant coming back into contact with the earth down below.

On this flight, I had managed to travel about 500 yards down the valley, and when my feet finally touched ground, things were far from over. There was still the task of safely getting that gigantic wing back down too, because I did NOT want a repeat of that ground-dragging thing that happened earlier at the top. So while simultaneously struggling for balance with my earth-bound feet, I also had to turn around backwards to face the wing, duck under my lines, and collapse the trailing edge. Then and only then could let out that scream I had been holding in since I launched. Wooo Hoo!!

Best of all, I still got to go back up and do it again for a third launch!  This time, the instructor picked us up in the truck, took us past the top of the hill where we started before, and launched us from the top of Whisper Point. Even before laying out the wing from this point, it was clear that we were higher than before. Rather than standing on the middle of a gently sloping hill, we were now on top of something which sloped downward and maybe 45 degrees and dropped about 80 feet over an equivalent distance on the horizon.  All the principles from the first two flights still applied, except that the wind was quite a bit stronger from here, the launch sequence was faster, and we were heading directly into a rising thermal the moment we stepped foot off the ground.

Without a shadow of a doubt, this was the best flight so far. I was airborne for more than two minutes, and traveled between a quarter and half of a mile. After that, it was time to pack up, stuff the wing into the back of the truck, and head in for lunch because the conditions were rapidly becoming way to strong, turbulent and erratic for somebody still on her first day, with less than 10 minutes of cumulative airtime under her wing.

That’s OK… my stomach was ready for lunch anyway.

*  *  *

At one point during lunch, I heard somebody’s cell phone going off underneath one of the wings which was bunched up in the grass under some shade.  It was on vibrate-mode, and I could hear it going off amidst the fabric.  I let the instructor know, and he moved the wing a bit, only to jump back rather rapidly.  It turns out that it was not a cell phone at all, but was actually a rattle-snake that had been buried beneath the wing, and it was not at all happy about it.

Like we didn’t already have enough to worry about as first-time students.  Now we had to think about snakes getting wrapped up in our wings, only to fall out of the sky and land on us too?  “Welcome to Eastern Washington,” my instructor told me.

*  *  *

After lunch, watching a video on kiting, and a couple of hours just lounging around waiting for the worst of the winds to die down, it was back to the slopes again. The difference this time was that we had the basics under “moderate” control, and were able to launch, travel, land, rosette, load into the truck, and do it all over again in much less time. All in all, that meant that I got between 4 and 5 flights in after lunch.  As much as I tried to keep track, I’m really not sure how many there were.

Mostly, I just know that I was having an absolute blast the entire time. By the last two flights, I was easily traveling between 1/4 and 1/2 of a mile in the air.  While airborne, I was much less jerky and reactive to whatever happened to me while up there.  I was also able to start changing directions just by changing my lean in the seat, rather than always applying breaks. The former maintains most of my speed, while the latter looses both speed and altitude.

And my landings were getting much better too. The key to a good landing is to control your horizontal ground-speed by getting it as slow as possible, while simultaneously making the wing “stall” when you are about 3 feet off of the ground. Then, the moment your feet touch the ground, turn around and collapse the wing.

When we wrapped up for the day, I noticed that I had a nice set of bruises on both of my upper arms, and I was not sure what they were from. My instructor said “Congratulations… We all get those.  it comes from leaning forward against the risers connected to the harness.”  I found it hard to believe that bruising was actually “normal,” except that we were doing the same set of drills over and over all day long. Normally, those particular motions are only needed once or twice, depending on how many times one launches on a given day.

When we started today half way down Whisper Point, going to the top seamed way out of my league, ominous, and scary. By the end of the day it was just awesome and fun. So when we then put our stuff into the truck for the last time and headed to another hill that they call “Don’s Peak” to look at what tomorrow would hold, the sensation of ominous and scary was back all over again. This launch point would have us traveling easily twice the distance we had traveled so far, and followed a zigzag pattern that traversed the interconnecting hills and valleys we would have to navigate on  our way down to the landing zone a mile away and several hundred feet below.

As much as that hill might have provided an adrenaline rush, the wind had changed, it was getting late, and Don’s Peak would simply have to wait until tomorrow, providing that the weather cooperated with us.

If the Snake Rings, Don’t Answer It!

Many are the times where I have been hiking or kayaking throughout the Snoqualmie region and noticed various airborne craft with people dangling precariously below. Sometimes it was a paraglider, others it was a hang-glider, but in all cases, there was something about watching the freedom of their movement through the air which was quite intoxicating. I kept telling myself “Someday, that looks like fun.”

Further compounding my interest was that my brother had taken up the sport with extreme passion, and kept sending me spectacular photographs taken from his aerial perch several thousand feet above the ground. But the real kicker was when I was in South Africa for his wedding, and he managed to hook me up with a friend of his for a brief but incredibly exhilarating adventure in a tandem paraglider. It only took a few moments in the air, and I knew for certain that it was only a matter of time before I got into the sport for myself.

* * *

That day came just this past weekend at a course with Aerial Paragliding in Cashmere, Washington. I’ve been thinking about it ever since.

The day started out with just myself and one other student working with a fellow named Chris, who was our instructor. There were other students there too, but we were the only two beginners.

After orientation to the parts of the glider and harness, we practiced building walls and bringing the wing up over our heads. “Building a wall” means taking the paraglider and laying it out so that it is as spread-out as it can be. Then the process continues by letting the wind fill the wing with air, then letting it settle back down to the ground again. You have a “wall” when you have the glider fully inflated, neatly laid out, and at the end of all of the lines that lead back to the harness.

Once you have a wall, you can start kiting. That’s when you pull on that wall with a bit of wind into the wing, then WWHHOOOOSH! The entire contraption lifts off of the ground and starts heading over your head. Kiting is when you can get it into that position and keep it there through the proper application of pressure on the appropriate lines without having the wing drag you around the field too badly.

Since I had already done some that with Yaro, through Skyco Sports a few days earlier, I did not need as much instruction with basic kiting, and was able to spend the time practicing instead. We did that for about an hour or so, then we headed up to a place called “Whisper Point”, where we would start running down our first hill.

Before we could do that, however, we had to perform a flight pre-check. This was done each and every time before launch, and consisted of “R1234RST”:

  • Reserve chute. Do you know where it is? Is it where it needs to be?
    (We weren’t using reserves because we were not going to be high enough to use them even if we wanted to. Besides that, we had no idea how to use them anyway).
  • One chin-strap buckle on the helmet, fastened and secure
  • Two carabineers holding the wing to the harness, both locked and secure.
  • Three buckles of the harness, all fastened and secured.
  • Four corners of the wing spread out and ready for flight, with lines straight and untangled.
  • Radio. Does it work? Can you hear instructions when airborne?
  • Stirrup. Do you have one leg in front, and one behind, so that you can push into your seat once airborne without pulling on your wing? (Imagine pulling on the yolk of an airplane while trying to move your seat forward… not a good idea.)
  • Tops and Turn. Are the tops of your risers in the right position to permit a turn to the forward position once your wing is aloft?

So then finally, we started with some gentle-slopes, running while pointing down-hill, and eventually hoping to go airborne. My natural tendency while running down hill was to look at the ground in case I should trip or fall. However, it really helped to stare out at the horizon instead because the moment I felt unsure of my footing was actually just as I was about to take off.

Without a shadow of a doubt, that’s when the fun really started — the moment when conditions were right and I was able to go completely airborne. It was absolutely awesome. Of course, in the midst of trying to enjoy the ride, my mind was alternating between “YES!” and “Oh crap!! What the hell am I doing?” The flight lasted probably close to a minute, maybe 150 yards long, and was over way too soon.

I had a slight sensation of being on a zip-wire, except that there was no wire directing my path, my path was far from straight, and all I knew about my landing site was that it was “down that way, wherever it happened to be when I lost altitude.

While flying, I kept my arms rather stiff. OK, they were out-stretched and rigid, and it wasn’t helping. I tended to grossly over-correct for everything, resulting in a pendulum motion – both forward and back, as well as left to right. Once on the ground, I recognized it as the exact same behavior that kayak students make when learning to steer. Not knowing what to do, I was doing everything, rapidly, and way to hard.

After bunching up my wing in a rosette, I had to hike back up the hill to do it again. A rosette is when you grab all the lines in front, right where they clip into the harness, then start coiling all of the lines as a group. The process takes up all the slack, and results in the corners of the wing being brought in towards the center, making a gigantic “rose” that is held in place by the lines. At that point, the entire contraption is tossed over the shoulder, and you can start walking with it. If you can imagine one of those renaissance-period puffy gowns that go out really far, then quadruple that, you kind of get the picture. Every step results in the whole contraption being jostled about and making a cacophony of rustling noises. With the sun at my back and an assortment of colored nylon surrounding my entire body, I think it ends up looking more like a peacock than a rose, but that’s just what it’s called.

* * *

My second flight did not go nearly as well. While setting up for launch, I’m not sure what I did wrong, but it was definitely not what I wanted. I ended up with the wing going up from the ground, over my head, and then down to the ground, where it began to drag me across the dirt and grass, face first. My first thought was “Well, THIS definitely sucks!” That was followed almost immediately by “Pull the breaks!!”

In the end, I was only dragged about 10 feet, and I was not moving that fast. Nonetheless, it served as a valuable lesson that there is quite a bit more to this sport than I am going to pick up all at once, and this is going to take a LOT of practice.

After recovery from my drag, I got set up again for launch, raised the wing over head, took a few steps down the hill, then WHOOSH! I was not only airborne, but had very rapidly gained a considerable bit of altitude. Well, maybe it was only 20 feet, but for my second flight, that was a lot.

My arms were much more relaxed this time, and I was able to keep my focus more on the horizon as I traveled down the valley. Part of me just wanted to scream out loud, except for the fact that nearly all of my attention was dedicated to focusing on everything that was going on around me: The wind, the shape of the ground, my forward speed and altitude, how far I was from the two hills on either side of the valley, and trying to figure out where I was actually going to land. While I knew the line on which I would land, I had absolutely no idea how far down that line I would travel before touching back down to the ground again. Imagine traveling in a car with a good bit of speed, letting off the accelerator, and trying to figure out how far you will travel before your speed bleeds off. This was basically the same thing, except that the whole thing was in the air and coming to a stop meant coming back into contact with the earth down below.

On this flight, I had managed to travel about 500 yards down the valley, and when my feet finally touched ground, things were far from over. There was still the task of safely getting that gigantic wing back down too, because I did NOT want a repeat of that ground-dragging thing that happened earlier at the top. So while simultaneously struggling for balance with my earth-bound feet, I also had to turn around backwards to face the wing, duck under my lines, and collapse the trailing edge. Then and only then could let out that scream I had been holding in since I launched. Wooo Hoo!!

Best of all, I still got to go back up and do it again for a third launch! This time, the instructor picked us up in the truck, took us past the top of the hill where we started before, and launched us from the top of Whisper Point. Even before laying out the wing from this point, it was clear that we were higher than before. Rather than standing on the middle of a gently sloping hill, we were now on top of something which sloped downward and maybe 45 degrees and dropped about 80 feet over an equivalent distance on the horizon. All the principles from the first two flights still applied, except that the wind was quite a bit stronger from here, the launch sequence was faster, and we were heading directly into a rising thermal the moment we stepped foot off the ground.

Without a shadow of a doubt, this was the best flight so far. I was airborne for more than two minutes, and traveled between a quarter and half of a mile. After that, it was time to pack up, stuff the wing into the back of the truck, and head in for lunch because the conditions were rapidly becoming way to strong, turbulent and erratic for somebody still on her first day, with less than 10 minutes of cumulative airtime under her wing.

That’s OK… my stomach was ready for lunch anyway.

* * *

At one point during lunch, I heard somebody’s cell phone going off underneath one of the wings which was bunched up in the grass under some shade. It was on vibrate-mode, and I could hear it going off amidst the fabric. I let the instructor know, and he moved the wing a bit, only to jump back rather rapidly. It turns out that it was not a cell phone at all, but was actually a rattle-snake that had been buried beneath the wing, and it was not at all happy about it.

Like we didn’t already have enough to worry about as first-time students. Now we had to think about snakes getting wrapped up in our wings, only to fall out of the sky and land on us too? “Welcome to Eastern Washington,” my instructor told me.

* * *

After lunch, watching a video on kiting, and a couple of hours just lounging around waiting for the worst of the winds to die down, it was back to the slopes again. The difference this time was that we had the basics under “moderate” control, and were able to launch, travel, land, rosette, load into the truck, and do it all over again in much less time. All in all, that meant that I got between 4 and 5 flights in after lunch. As much as I tried to keep track, I’m really not sure how many there were.

Mostly, I just know that I was having an absolute blast the entire time. By the last two flights, I was easily traveling between 1/4 and 1/2 of a mile in the air. While airborne, I was much less jerky and reactive to whatever happened to me while up there. I was also able to start changing directions just by changing my lean in the seat, rather than always applying breaks. The former maintains most of my speed, while the latter looses both speed and altitude.

And my landings were getting much better too. The key to a good landing is to control your horizontal ground-speed by getting it as slow as possible, while simultaneously making the wing “stall” when you are about 3 feet off of the ground. Then, the moment your feet touch the ground, turn around and collapse the wing.

When we wrapped up for the day, I noticed that I had a nice set of bruises on both of my upper arms, and I was not sure what they were from. My instructor said “Congratulations… We all get those. it comes from leaning forward against the risers connected to the harness.” I found it hard to believe that bruising was actually “normal,” except that we were doing the same set of drills over and over all day long. Normally, those particular motions are only needed once or twice, depending on how many times one launches on a given day.

When we started today half way down Whisper Point, going to the top seamed way out of my league, ominous, and scary. By the end of the day it was just awesome and fun. So when we then put our stuff into the truck for the last time and headed to another hill that they call “Don’s Peak” to look at what tomorrow would hold, the sensation of ominous and scary was back all over again. This launch point would have us traveling easily twice the distance we had traveled so far, and followed a zigzag pattern that traversed the interconnecting hills and valleys we would have to navigate on our way down to the landing zone a mile away and several hundred feet below.

As much as that hill might have provided an adrenaline rush, the wind had changed, it was getting late, and Don’s Peak would simply have to wait until tomorrow, providing that the weather cooperated with us.

2005 Seattle To Portland Bicycle Ride

 http://www.seattletoportland.com

 

Last year, when I tried to ride non-stop from Seattle to Portland, I only made it 150 miles before dehydrating.
That story can be found here: 2004 Seattle to Kelso

This year, everything went fine. 
In some ways, the trip actually started Friday afternoon, when I drove down to Portland to have my car there for the return trip.  Normally, the trip takes about 3 and a half hours.  Traffic was horrible, and it took nearly 6 hours to get there.  That meant that I missed the earlier bus I was planning to take back to Seattle.  (The train was sold out – other riders heading North.)  So it meant that I didn’t get back home until close to 11pm, and I still had some prep work to do before going to bed.

When I finally got to sleep, it was about 12:30am, and I would be getting up again at 3:00am to eat a big protein breakfast, stretch my muscles, drive to the starting line, and perform final safety checks on my bike and person, then hit the road.

I crossed the starting line right at 5:00am, and rolled across the finish line in Portland just before 10:30pm.  So that’s about 17:30 hours on the clock to get there.  Some of that time was spent at rest stops, so the total time actually pushing south while on the saddle was 14:22:30.

At the 100-mile mark in Centralia, I was feeling GREAT!  My average speed was 17.7 mph, and I had made it there before noon!  But I made the mistake of having some spaghetti to re-fuel.  The pasta was fine, but the sauce was way to acidic for my stomach.  I kept riding, but for the next 10 miles, I was at a much slower pace because I kept burping tomato sauce.  After about another 5 miles, I was able to resume “normal” speeds of 17+mph.

By around mile 125, I started hitting a wall.  I started seriously thinking about stopping for the night.  However, knowing that might happen, I deliberately chose NOT leave provisions at a midpoint.  I told myself I would make it to Portland, and that I was going to draw upon my well-honed skills of stubbornness to get there.  75 miles of stubbornness?  HA!  I can muster that EASILY!

However, I still had to play lots of mental games to “reframe” the rest of the trip…

  • “More than half way there” only worked for a little while. 
  • “75 miles is not that bad… I’ve done that in an afternoon many times.” 
    (Yes, but you were fresh when you started…)
  • “As soon as I get it down to 64 miles, that’s just like a trip around Lake Washington + Lake Sammamish”
    (Take the short-cut, and don’t do Lake Sammamish this time)
  • As soon as I get it down to 52 miles, that’s just like a trip around Lake Washington”
    (Why would I want to ride around Lake Washington after 148 miles already?)
  • What are these great big bugger-like things that keep showing up on my handle-bars?  Eewww!
      (After 4 years, the leather on my gloves has finally warn through and the gel cushioning was coming out.)
  • “Just let me go another 12 miles… that will put me at 40 to go, which is a trip to Marymoor and back”
  • “OK, 40 miles to go… I can do this. 
    Lets see, at current speeds, that’s only another 3 hours on this #%@*! bike.”
  • At the rest-stop in St. Helens, no sooner do I sit down on the port-o-potty when somebody’s cell-phone starts ringing from down below.  Now there’s a call that is going to end up in voice-mail!
  • “20 miles to go… It’s just like riding home from Marymoor…  I’m in the home stretch now”
    (Uh oh.. it’s getting dark, and I don’t have my lights.  It’s also getting lonely.  Time for another cookie?)
  • I can’t stop now… both because there’s so few miles left, and because I do NOT want to try this again next year!
  • I said I would make it, now make it so! 
    I’m going to make it just because I created that possibility with my word.
  • Where is a good dilithium crystal when I really need one?
  • Look!!  A road-sign saying 13 miles to Portland! 
    Yea!  Woo Hoo! 
    And I get to see another mile marker every 3-4 minutes! 
    Yea for the mile markers! 
    Come onnnn Mile Markers!  
    Mile marker mile marker mile marker….  Be de be de be de!
  • Wait a second… I’m becoming invisible. 
    Wow!  Wouldn’t that be cool?
    Wake up!  This is serious.
    It’s definitely dark, I’m riding on the side of a major highway, and I’m nearly exhausted. 
    I had better put on my jacket inside out, because it’s white on the inside.
    So help me, if some ass hole runs me over when I have so few miles to go, let me tell you, I am going to be PISSED!  So put on the jacked to ward off the ass holes.
    (Personal safety was secondary to ass hole repellent at that point)
  • 10 miles to go.  Just about into the single digits now, but I am SOOOO tired!!
    I’ve had 3 hours of sleep in the last 48 hours,
    my back hurts,
    my knees hurt,
    my shoulders hurt,
    my hair is all itchy,
    I’m covered in dirt and grease,
    I smell so badly that not even the wind keeps it away,
    my feet are on fire,
    and don’t even TALK to me about my rump!    
    I’ve tried every position I can think of, there is not a single position which is pain-free.
  • 5 miles to go.  Oh, how lovely Portland is this time of night. 
    I bet it’s much nicer when I can actually afford to look at it rather than staring at the road for those route-markers.  Thank goodness I hooked up with 3 people with lights and a map.
  • 5 blocks to go!  And look!!!  There’s where I parked my car!  STOP!  STOP!  Get off this crazy thing, turn right and go to sleep in my car!  I’m in Portland already!  That counts!  Just STOP already!
    (No, wait, I can’t do that… 5 more blocks and I get my one-day-rider patch, plus the restrooms.)
  • FINISH LINE!

So I finally did it.  203 miles in a single day.  It was fun, but it was also rather grueling by the end.  In the words of Mark Twain, “I’m glad that I did it partly because it was worth while, but mostly because I shall never have to do it again.”

While I fully expect I’ll still do the ride again next year, I think I’ll stick to the two-day plan, where the fun-to-pain ratio is a little bit more towards the fun side.

Preparation for the ride consisted of 17 weeks, over 1,500 miles of training and over 100 hours of saddle time.  While I’m glad that I did it, and it was indeed a personal best and huge accomplishment, I’m ready to have my life back and start something new.  Maybe I’ll take up paragliding next.

2004 Seattle To Portland Bicycle Ride

 http://www.seattletoportland.com

 

Yesterday, July 17, 2004, I set out to ride my bicycle the 206 miles from Seattle to Portland in a single day. I had done the trip twice before, both times in 2 days. Both times, the second day seemed far more grueling than the first.  From multiple riders, I had heard that one day was really the way to go. I had put in the training miles, steadily increasing my speed and endurance, and was all set to give it a go this year. 

Much to my surprise, I found myself looking at the various group-dynamics along the ride with a LIOSian slant. At the start line, there were riders all over the parking-lot at the University of Washington’s Husky Stadium. They were stretching, checking their bikes, riding around in circles to warm up, and engaged in idle chatter. This would be a group of people from all over the area, tentatively exploring the early “forming” stages. At this point, other than those who already arrived together in smaller groups, everybody shared little more than the commonality of seeking to peddle their way South for the next 10-20 hours in either one or two days. Up until the time when the gate would open to let people loose in groups of about 200, the “task” part of the adventure had not yet begun.

Alas, when the gate did open, I found myself in the second wave, crossing the start line at 4:59:00 AM.  It had officially begun. The sun was just barely coming up in the distance, there was slight cloud cover, and the air was a near perfect temperature for beginning what would become a long and arduous endeavor. I found myself experiencing a high level of nervous excitement at the start of the ride.  As we left the parking lot en-mass, starting speeds were only about 15 miles an hour. There were too many people, we were too close together, and there were too many turns for anybody to travel much faster. At this point, the group of maybe 40 cyclist within my immediate proximity were all quite unified in the task leaving the stadium, traveling down the roadways, and of wanting to gain greater separation for safety.  At the same time, even beyond the 40 within my immediate vision, there were still others both ahead and behind seeking to do the same thing. As we traveled, my sense was that we were all one big undifferentiated ego mass.

Yet while the initial speeds were moderate, the effort to travel at those speeds was quite minimal.  The need for vigilance was high in order to travel safely, but the mass of people created a force of wind and suction that allowed us to coast at those speeds, even up-hill. Surrounding me on all sides were the sounds of gears shifting, chains pulling, wind blowing, and tires rolling over the roadway. The cacophony of stimuli bombarding all of my senses was so overpowering and rhythmic as to make the effort of peddling almost unnoticeable. Instead, my focus was on the wheels in front of me, the pot-holes below me, and the other cyclist to both of my sides — those on my right fading back as I passed them, and those on my left surging forward as they passed me. The effort was more about concentration and focus than physical exertion, and it was easy to enter a hyper-vigilant state that was also somehow quite soothing, as if in deep meditation, broken only by the repeated calls of “On your left!”

After about the first 5 miles, the roadways opened up a bit, space between cyclists increased, and there was a greater sense of mobility within the group. Speeds had increased to about 20 MPH, and it was possible to break away from the pack. While traveling with a group took less energy, it also demanded a greater degree of conformity and predictability. It was not possible to speed up or slow down at will and still remain part of the group, which had now taken on a character of its own, even without words among the members. To travel at my own pace would require leaving this group – differentiating – and traveling at my own pace.

So as I moved towards the left and began increasing my speed to 22 MPH, I began passing greater numbers of people. At that point, two things started to happen. The first was that there were others in the group who also wanted to go faster, and as I began to surge forward, they would drop in behind me to ride in my wake. It was as if there were a latent urge to go faster by others within the group, and it did not become expressed until such time as somebody took the lead by pedaling harder. My goal to surge forward, to differentiate myself as a cyclist, was met with joining behaviors of others who wanted to follow my lead.

The second thing was that as I began to separate from the pack in which I was traveling, I saw how large the hoard of cyclist really was. I knew that at most, there were 300 people in front of me, though from my vantage point, I could not see the front of the line which seemed to go on forever. Likewise, there would be upwards of 7,000 riders behind me, and I had no interest in seeing that end of the continuum. The line seemed to alternate between clusters of about 30, separated by about 500 yards of sparse riders, followed by another group of cyclists. I suspect that were you to start at the head of the line and work your way backwards, that pattern would repeat for miles. 

Within my place on that line, I found myself simultaneously wanting to separate from the group I was in, and also wanting to accelerate to join the next group ahead. On the whole, there was really very little difference between one group and the next, and yet the urge I felt to leave one and enter the next one was quite profound. I had an inner desire to separate, to travel on my own as an individual cyclist, while at the same time to enjoy the benefits that membership within a larger group provided. Traveling on my own meant the greatest personal freedom, but also the greatest amount of effort. Traveling in a group took far less energy, but required greater conformity and concern for the safety of those around me. It was not a problem to be solved, as much as it was a paradox to be navigated.

So this pattern continued for the first 11 miles, until reaching the Seward Park mini-stop, where probably half of the pack pulled over, and the other half (myself included) continued on. With the hoards now thinned out, it was safer to increase speed, and I found myself in the midst of a group rolling at a comfortable 25 MPH. On my own, I would not likely travel much faster than 20, but I could easily assimilate with this group by watching my spacing and riding close behind in the wake of those in front of me. Having “found my pack,” the reality that teams are capable of doing more than individuals became blatantly obvious. 

I was now traveling within a semi-established group of 5 which had formed as a byproduct of traveling at a common speed. Storming was non-existent, as the norms were based purely on speed. Anybody not meeting that norm would be dropped, while anybody who could match that speed was free to join. At intervals of about one minute, the lead cyclist would move to the side and allow the pace-line to pass, at which point the former lead would join the rear to benefit from the draft of those up front.  Traveling this way saves about 20% of the effort required to ride solo, but it is not without risks.  

The distance between the tip of my front wheel, and the tail of the rear wheel in front of me was from 6 to 18 inches.  At 25 MPH, we are traveling over 36 feet every second, which means reaction times need to be less than 0.1 seconds to maintain safety.  It’s analogous to two automobiles driving 50 MPH with less than 3 between their bumpers.  

Yet somehow cyclists who are complete strangers manage to establish enough trust to ride this way for miles at a time because it allows the group to remain strong without over-burdening any individual cyclist.  This particular group lasted for the next 12 miles, until reaching the first stop which was the REI in Kent. By that point, I had managed to go 23.5 miles in a little over an hour, and it was only 6:10 in the morning.  It was only the beginning, of course, but at that rate, I was well on my way to making the entire journey in a day.

However, as soon as we entered the REI parking lot, the “group” disbanded as we all sought to tend to our individual needs for carbohydrates, water, and bladder relief. It was the fastest I had ever made it to the first stop, and also the first time that there were no lines for the bathrooms. After a 22 minute stop, I was on my way again, except that the “group” I had formerly traveled with was nowhere to be seen. There were others re-entering the course at the same time as me, though most of them were traveling at 15 MPH, while I was cruising solo at 20. 

As much as I would have liked to have caught up to a group traveling at 25 MPH, there was no way that I could sustain that speed on my own, and so no way that I could ever catch one going that fast. At the same time, some of those 15 MPH riders were just waiting for somebody my speed to pass by, and before I knew it I had a trail of 5 in my wake. Fortunately, riding in someone’s wake helps the followers, while doing no harm to the lead. Then, just as those 5 had latched onto me when I passed, there was a 10-person pace-line gaining from the rear. The line passed me, one rider after the other in rapid succession until the end of the line, at which point I pushed forward to catch their wake, leaving behind the 5 who were my former entourage. The point here is that it is much harder to find an appropriate group to join, and far more likely that it will find you.  The key to being able to join a new group when it comes along is a willingness to change speeds.

So for the entirety of the ride from Seattle to Portland, there were roughly 7,000 riders spread out over many miles, coming together into groups of various sizes and for various lengths of time and distance. Groups would travel together, having formed on the basis of speed, both helping and being helped by each other’s presence, only to disband and form again in a new configuration. On the one hand, each of these groups may have been mere groups-of-convenience, yet there was also a level of camaraderie among strangers which was somehow established quickly and with very little negotiation.

I continued to enter and exit these groups for about the first 52 miles, until I reached Spanaway, Washington. At that point, while I still felt fine, I noticed that I did not have to pee nearly as much as I should have. It was my first sign that perhaps I was not drinking enough, just as the temperatures were beginning to rise through the high 70’s. My cumulative average speed was still 18.8 MPH, including slowing down for hills. I only needed to maintain 17 to be able to complete the course in a day. I made it a point to drink more on the next segment, and was merrily on my way again.

By the time I reached Tenino, at 85 miles into the trip, I was starting to have trouble. The temperatures had climbed into the 80’s, the sun was beating down brightly onto the pavement, and I was unable to drink enough to meet my body’s needs. Fortunately, I still had an appetite, and crammed down a banana, two brownies, a peach, a yogurt, 3 rice-crispy treats, a hand of grapes, and a power-bar before heading out again. Truly, one of the greatest things about cycling is that I get to eat, and eat, and eat. In a matter of minutes, I can consume enough calories to send a diabetic into a coma, and if I’m lucky that will be enough to get me to the next stop. Food, however, was not the problem – water was, and I was not drinking enough.

By the time I made it to Centralia, Washington, just past the 100 mile mark, I was showing signs of stress. The temperatures had reached somewhere into the 90’s, and my stomach was not doing well. I needed to eat, but could not bring myself to eat anything at all. I knew I had expended vast amounts of energy, and I should have been famished. Instead, in what I knew was scorching heat, I was getting the chills. Recognizing the symptoms of heat exhaustion, I sat in the shade and decided not to go anywhere until I managed to drink 3 quarts of water and started peeing again. As much as I wanted to hit the road, I knew I had to tend to basic self-care, lest my body collapse. As if I needed the reminder, there were EMT’s loading another rider into an ambulance for heat stroke. My body just wanted to puke and to go to sleep. My mind knew better, and began flushing my system with water. I was showing all the signs of over-heating, and the two hours it took to re-hydrate were essential to my survival.  I had focused too much on the task of getting to Portland, and not enough on maintaining my body to get me there.

After the two-hour delay, my legs were rested, and I was anxious to get rolling again.  Unfortunately, having let that much time slip by, most of the riders who would be traveling at my pace were already well ahead of me.  That meant that it was less likely that I would find another group traveling at my speed.  However, I managed to travel at 22 on my own, until I was indeed approached by another pace-line going 24.  In some ways, it was like stepping onto a moving sidewalk — accelerate to match the prevailing speed, then enjoy the ride.

The next stop was at mile 120 — Winlock, Washington — home of the world’s largest Egg.  By this point (3:00 PM), many of the other riders were stopping for the day, and those going all the way to Portland were long gone.  I was considering calling it quits myself, except for a strange turn of events.  There was another woman there who was also planning to go all the way to Portland, except that she was having a mild asthma attack.  She managed to ask if I had an inhaler, which I did not.  Unfortunately, Winlock is one of the smaller stops without any first aid or amenities to speak of.  However, I remembered pursed lip breathing from my training as an EMT, which I suggested to her.  It seemed to help, and she said that her head began to clear up when she did that.  At a minimum, she said she would not be going on, and would call her folks for a ride home.  However, since she was not going to Portland, she gave me her bus-ticket from Portland back to Seattle.

So now all I had to do was make it another 80 miles in 6 hours, so that I could make it to Portland in time for the last bus back, which left at 9pm.  In theory, it was quite plausible that I could make it, except that I was still trying to re-establish equilibrium after having dehydrated back in Centralia.  My legs were fine, and I was still able to travel at 18 MPH or better on my own.  The problem was that my stomach was still not happy, and I was going to need to put in a lot more fuel to complete the ride.

I continued to press on, though at this point I was leading far more groups than I was able to join and follow.  I was slowing down, and there were others for whom I was now the strongest cyclist around.  They latched onto my wake just when I most wanted to find a faster wake that I could join.  The irony of a "wake" being both the vacuum of air behind a moving cyclist, as well as what takes place after a funeral was not lost on me at this point.

When I finally reached the 150 mile mark in Lexington, Washington, it was about 7:00pm.  That was the last major food stop, and when I got there they were closing down for the night.  The volunteers there went into the truck and got me a sandwich and some grapes, then basically closed shop.  Earlier in the trip, grapes were the most delicious thing I could put into my mouth — sweet, bite-sized, and wet.  I sat down to eat them now, and they were absolutely vile.  I tried some of the PB&J sandwich, but I could not eat that either.  Not only was it gross, but I could not produce the saliva to eat it.  In both cases, I knew there was nothing wrong with the food.  It was me — I was dehydrated again, only this time my body was resisting far more than it did 50 miles ago.

At that point, I knew there was no way that I could re-hydrate and perform adequate self care, while also making my way the last 50 miles to Portland.  I had started this ride in excellent shape, and should have been quite capable of reaching Portland in a day.  However, I had gone too far outside of the maintenance-envelope to recover without significant physical penalties.  Although I was heavily task-focused and having a great time, I had neglected an aspect of self care to the point that my level of functioning was beginning to suffer.  I might be able to push on still further, but I knew that the costs would only increase exponentially.

As much as I had wanted to achieve my goal of reaching Portland, it was time to quit.  I called home for a rescue, then traveled another 5 miles to a more convenient pick-up point in Kelso, Washington.  I thought long and hard about making that call — partly because it seemed like quitting, partly because I did not like the need to be rescued, and partly because it meant that I had failed to achieve my goal.

Fortunately, in the 2 hours it took for my ride to get to Kelso, I had a bit of time to do some re-framing.  Portland was really just a point on the map, and if I really wanted to get there, I could have stayed at a hotel for the night and finished the next 50 miles in less than 3 hours.  However, my real goal was not Portland — it was to do my very best.  

  • I rode over 1,800 miles as part of my training.
  • I made a decision based on personal self-care, 
    rather than to sacrifice my health or safety for an external goal.
  • I rode the fastest 100 miles in my life — reaching Centralia in 5:09:38, 
    with an average speed of 18.9 MPH
  • I rode farther that day (150 miles to Kelso) than I had ever done in my life.
  • I was still able to walk without stiffness or soreness, even the next day.
  • I completed the S.T.K. (Seattle to Kelso), and lived to tell about it.

Without a doubt, I performed at my personal best.  That’s more than enough to hold my head high about.  And next year?  Well, I’m going to drink so much water that I may float my way into Portland.

Climbing Lessons

This is a story about the consequences of waiting until tomorrow, of not wanting to let go, and of the value of holding on.  These three lessons were all etched indelibly into my soul while plastered up against the face of one rock or another, somewhere in the mountains of Virginia, West Virginia, or California.

Back in High School, I had been an avid rock climber,  mostly in Great Falls Park, Virginia.  The park is a truly beautiful place, with 30-60 foot cliffs all along both sides of the Potomac river.  Climbers drop ropes from above, walk to the bottom, and provide safety for each other as they pry their climbing skills on the various rock faces for miles.  Below, in the river, kayakers can be seen playing in the waves just below the Class-VI rapids that give Great Falls its name.  It was at this place where I developed my early skills in climbing, and first experienced the joys of pushing myself hard, striving always for the simple joy of overcoming obstacles on my ascent to the top of an arbitrary point of earth.

Eventually, however, I wanted to climb higher and harder mountains — to climb places where I could not simply drop a rope from the top, but instead had to start from the bottom, place equipment in the rock during the ascent for safety, and climb in segments of 100′ to 150′ at a time.  This was known as ‘Lead Climbing’, and it was through that process that I would gradually arrive on the summit of something far larger then myself.  And so it was, with a buddy of mine, that we traveled to Pendleton County, West Virginia, to climb Seneca Rocks — a 980′ rock face that stands out starkly from the surrounding area and is a local Mecca for climbers.

SenecaRocks

At the time, my buddy and I were only just beginning our slow process of learning how to ‘lead climb.’  Between the two of us, we had barely enough gear to ascend the simpler routes, but it was a breathtaking journey nonetheless.  Seneca rocks is divided into two main buttresses, with a gun sight-like formation in the middle, known as the Gendarme.  The Gendarme  is a single spire of rock, maybe 60 feet high and barely big enough to stand on top of at its apex.  It is said that you haven’t really reached the top of that climb until you actually stand upright on its razor’s edge.

In any event, we had already been climbing all day just to reach the base of the Gendarme, and were both tired and at our wits end from the adventure.  We had been climbing at our physical and skill limits, and it was starting to get late.  As much as we wanted to continue up the Gendarme, we also knew that safety and prudence dictated that we head down, and plan on ascending that particular rock another day.

Alas, as so often happens in life, one thing lead to another and prior to actually making it back to Seneca rocks, the Gendarme, that massive piece of rock that had been standing for millions of years, finally fell from the face of the mountain.  In that simple event, I learned my first lesson: Never count on the ability to do tomorrow what you wish to do today.  For if even part of a mountain, a massive piece of rock that had stood for eons could suddenly give way and crumble to dust, what assurance is there that the simpler, more ethereal joys and pleasures in life will wait for the day I am ready to partake of their bounty?

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The second lesson, coincidentally, also took place on Seneca Rocks.  This time, however, it was many years later with my younger brother, Darron.  On this fateful day, we were climbing a route which sloped slightly backward, and made its way diagonally upwards to the right.  It was called "Ecstasy Junior."  At the time, the climb was very much at my limit of skill to lead-climb successfully.  My progress was slow and arduous, and fear often trembled through my legs, making basic stability considerably more challenging.

Out of that fear, I was placing considerably more "pieces" of equipment into the rock to assure my safety should I fall.  Unfortunately, there were two drawbacks to my approach.  First was that by the time I was nearing the 70′ mark, I had nearly run out of equipment I could use to continue in safety without a longer run-out of rope.  Second was that many of those pieces were poorly placed in fear,  rather than being more strategic.  That meant that there was a great deal of friction in the rope along the face of the rock.  So much so, that it was now physically difficult to pull the rope any further as I tried to ascend.  Lastly, the wind, shape of the rocks, and distance between my brother and I made communication physically difficult, even with shouting, as we were no longer in line of sight.

The final obstacle was that perhaps 20 feet from the top of the climb, I was completely stuck.  I was nearly exhausted from the effort I had expended, I did not have the strength to make the remaining 20 feet, I was out of equipment to make that distance safely even if I did have the strength, and like a treed cat, I found myself unable to climb back down what I had just ascended.  I had come to the conclusion that I would have to "peel off" of the rock by letting go, allowing myself to fall, and then having my brother simply lower me down from the last piece of protection that I had placed in the rock serving as a pulley.

The problem was that I had placed that piece maybe 10′ below me, and I did not know if it would hold.   And since I was unable to climb back down to that piece to reduce the distance, that meant that when I fell, I would drop close to 20′, (double the distance) and still had no assurance that the piece would not pop out.  If it did, there was another piece an additional 5′ below that which was more secure, but that would still be a total drop of 30′, so I found myself in quite a bind.  I could not go up, I could not climb down, and the most sensible thing (HA) was actually to just let go of the rock and fall.  That negative slope at least meant that I would be falling into free-air rather than banging against the rock, but I simply could not bring myself to let go.

So rather than saving what little strength that I had left and simply pushing away from the rock, I instead chose to cling desperately with my hands to a tiny nub of a hand-hold about the size of a golf-ball.   That hand-hold was big enough to grab hold of when I first pulled myself up to it from below, but it was slowly getting smaller and smaller.  My grip was beginning to weaken, and there was a torrential battle in my mind between logic, which said to just let go, and animal reflex, which said "Not on your life!"  Literally, I was staring at my fingers, and I could hear both voices ringing loudly and clearly in my skull: "LET GO!!", followed by "NEVER!!".  That left me in the position of fighting with myself mentally, and then physically as I kept switching my grip — from clinging with one hand, then the other, and then trying to cup that nub with my palm as my fingers rapidly lost some, and then all of the strength that was left within them.  At the final point, after having exhausted my hands, my wrists, my forearms, and my patience, I found myself with one hand cupping the nub with the other cupped on top of the first, only to watch my sweaty hands ever so slowly slide off of that rock.  My eyes were as big as saucers as I stared in near disbelief that my body could betray me in that final hour with an unknown fate awaiting me below.

At that precise moment when my hands finally slipped off of the rock, I took a deep gasp of air as if falling into a pool and turned my gaze immediately downward to that tiny piece of aluminum 10′ below upon which my life would soon depend.  As if in slow motion, I could see it rise from below as I descended through the air in freefall.  I swear that I got one final look at it as I passed below, now accelerating at 32′ per second, per second.  Despite the terror in my heart, that was only the half-way mark on my descent to the end of my rope, at which point my weight would begin to take up all the slack in the system, putting tension on every piece of protection along my route, focusing probably 800 pounds of force on that thing in the rock made from the same material as a soda-can.

Despite what had seemed an eternity in which I fell in near silence, the rope finally drew taught, the system absorbed its load as it was designed to do, and I heard resounding KA-CHINK as everything came to rest under tension.  Then and only then did I let out that gasp of air I had taken from above.  I was hanging in free space and  I ached with every fiber of my body.  I drew my head close to the rope and expelled a mixture of laughter and tears.  

That was my first "Leader Fall", and it was obviously quite memorable.  However, after it was over, I was still suspended on the side of a rock, and I was completely unable to move my hands from the torture I had put them through clinging to that nub now 20′ over my head.  My brother lowered me down, and it was all that I could muster just to remove  and retrieve the other pieces of protection from the rock as I was lowered down.  In the end, we did not make it to the top of that particular climb, and I had left two pieces of equipment in the rock above from which I was lowered.  It was a small cost for the safety of my life, of course, but in that adventure I learned my second climbing lesson: Do not waste time, strength, or energy trying to avoid the inevitable.  Allow myself the grace and trust to let go, so that my resources will be available to me for recovery rather than wasted on a battle I cannot win.

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The third lesson the rocks taught me was in California, while trying to reach the base of the climb for Half Dome, in the Yosemite Valley.  It was many years later, and I was again with my brother who had just graduated from college in Colorado.  We had rented a car and made a fateful road-trip out West with our sights on something really big.  He had heard from a friend that there was a short cut via a series of climbers trails from the parking lot in the valley straight to the base of the rocks.  The alternative was to take an 11 mile  hikers trail up the back side, only to swing around the front at mile 9.

The problem was that we didn’t really know where these trails were.  We found what looked like a trail and started taking it upwards, but soon it petered out and we found ourselves nearly bushwhacking up a very steep incline.  We could still see our destination on Half Dome, so we blissfully told ourselves that we were heading in the right direction and pressed onwards.  It was at that point when I thought to ask my brother what kind of First Aid training he had acquired, since our route was rapidly taking us farther and farther off the beaten path.  I had been trained as an Emergency Medical Technician, but should anything happen to me, that training would be useless unless my brother knew what he was doing.  So as we continued, I proceeded to give him a crash course in first aid, focusing especially on what to do should I become unconscious.  We tried not to think about any foreshadowing involved in learning First Aid immediately before attempting a big-wall ascent, but by golly, he was going to learn this stuff!

We were carrying all of our food, water, and gear on our backs.  Wherever we were, it was most definitely NOT a trail, and as we got closer and closer to the base of the climb, things obviously got quite a bit steeper.  Soon, our steep hike turned into a scramble, and from there it turned into some free-climbing without ropes as we continued on.  More than once, we came to an obstacle and asked ourselves whether we needed to pull out our gear and rope-up to get to the next ledge in what should have been a "trail" but was most definitely not.  Each time, we sized it up and decided "Nah… we can climb that!"  So we took it slowly and made our way up without ropes, since to pull out all of the gear would slow us down considerably, even if it was in the interest of safety.

Alas, there came that one fateful time when choosing to forgo the ropes was the wrong decision.  The section of rock was only about 50′ high, and was full of easy hand and foot-holds.  I went first, while Darron waited below.  At the very top of this climb was a moderate sized tree, which I grabbed hold of as I tried to pull myself up over the top.  The problem was that I still had my backpack on, and it had become inextricably caught in one of the branches.  I had tried to wiggle and pull my way loose, but I was stuck.

Despite the considerable drop, I was really quite calm during all of this.  I was hanging onto a tree branch with both arms, my legs were swinging freely below me, I had a 50 pound pack strapped to my back, and I was unable to move one way or the other.  I remember telling Darron quite calmly that I was definitely stuck.  For some reason, I kept thinking of Winnie the Pooh, stuck inside of the door to Rabbit’s house, unable to move one way or the other.  Darron had suggested simply dropping my pack, except that I would have to hang by one arm, and then the other, just to unclip the thing in the first place.  I was not strong enough to hold myself and the remaining 50 pounds by one arm.

Unlike when I was stuck at Seneca Rocks, this was NOT a time when letting go was an option.  There was no safety rope attached this time, and I knew full well that I did not have the luxury of simply "hanging out" while I figured out what do.  Darron had dropped his back-pack below and began the free ascent on his own to see if he could help, but I knew that he would not reach me before some action on my part was required.  Plus, since he was directly below me, if I did fall, there was a risk that I would end up taking him out with me, so I told him to stay clear.

I pushed and pulled to no avail.  My feet could kick at the rock face, but only managed to toss loose stones below onto Darron, and I was unable to catch any grip or purchase with my feet.  My arms were clearly getting tired, I was breathing heavily and sweating profusely.  The thought of simply letting go had crossed my mind, but that option left zero doubt that the outcome would not go well.  Ironically, my thoughts were really not about my own death.  Instead, I found myself thinking about how horrible it would be for my brother to have to deal with such a thing, and worse, the though that I would not die, but simply be terribly injured in a heap of rubble 50′ below.  So clearly, I was not in a good spot, and I was highly motivated to do something, but I had no idea what to do.

And so I began to swing from left to right with my feet.  I remember Darron asking what the hell I was doing, and in a fit of incredibly deep focus and concentration, I simply screamed at him to "SHUT UP!!".  I knew that my voice was quivering in terror.  My younger brother was clearly worried, and all he could see was that I was in serious trouble, and was beginning to swing from the main branch like a chimpanzee.  Now with quite a bit of arc in my swing, my pack still firmly caught in the branches, I began to kick and hoist my feet upwards like a sit-up from below.  I had no idea what I was doing, except that panic was setting in, I was clinging to the branch for dear life, and squirming like a trapped animal fighting for its life, which in a very real sense, I was.  At that precise moment, SNAP!!!

The branch that had tangled my backpack finally broke, freeing me from its clutches.  It still hung from my pack, adding maybe 10 pounds to my weight as I clung by my arms to the main branch, but at last I was able to kick my legs up and over the branch and pull myself to relative safety.  I quickly pushed myself back from the ledge, still gasping desperately for air and water for my parched throat, but I had managed to extricate myself from the danger.  And it was in  that moment that I came to my third climbing lesson: When you are stuck, continue trying new things…  It doesn’t matter what they are, so long as you keep moving.  When the alternatives are stagnation or death, absolutely all directions are more appealing than standing still.   Most importantly, choose life.  Always and forever, choose life.  But when it came time for Darron to make the ascent, you can bet your ass that I put him on the end of a rope!

To Bond, Or Not To Bond…

Half way through college in Boston, I took a semester off to teach environmental education to 4th through 6th graders at Seargant Camp.  The program provided room and board in a huge farm house for about 12 staff who had all come together with diverse backgrounds, experience, ages, and expectations.  For 3 months, we lived, worked, ate, and played together in various capacities.  There were problems and flare-ups of personality, but for the most part things really were addressed either individually, or as a group where all would come together.

For me, it was the first time that I became part of a larger community than my nuclear family of 4.  For recreation during the weekends, groups of us would go canoeing, rock climbing, or hiking together.  Technically, it was a “job”, but practically, it was a way of life and of being.  It was very new, fascinating, intriguing, intense, and enjoyable for me.  Over time, these people I worked with became very dear friends.  From each and every one of them, I learned a great deal.  It was therefore with some sadness that I knew the end of the program would see us all going our separate ways.

Eventually, the end did come, and of course we all scattered to the wind.  We exchanged names and addresses, of course, but with few exceptions, ties were broken, and the sense of loss that I felt was far and away more deep, profound, and painful than I could have ever imagined.  In essence, I had learned to come alive in that environment, and now my world as I had come to know it was disbanding — both literally, and figuratively.

Sargent Camp had ended on a Friday, and I had the good fortune of being expected for work at Camp Merrowvista, with the American Youth Foundation (AYF) the following Monday.  It was a mournful weekend for me as I traveled further North, living out of the back of my Toyota 4-Runner, which then held the sum total of my worldly possessions.  Merrowvista was to be another 3-month program, this time a summer adventure camp.

At the AYF, the “community” was much larger (75 people), and not as intimate as Sargent Camp’s 12.  I did grow close to a smaller set of individuals with whom I worked more directly, but for the most part I was on my own in this program.  It was stressful in that “my kids” consisted of a pyromaniac, a cleptopath, a sociopath, and about 10 other “normal” kids who were full of adolescent angst and rage, and generally less than happy to be there.  Under such circumstances, I bonded with my co-workers more out of a sense of necessity for my own survival than out of choice or joy.

Nonetheless, by the end of the summer, there were about 5 people that I had bonded with, and whom I knew full well I would miss terribly when the program came to an end.  I had never really taken the time to fully process the loss of my first outdoor community, so the loss of the second one hit me all the harder.  We exchanged addresses and phone numbers, of course, but just like before, we ultimately scattered to the wind like the coming leaves of Fall.

I had a few weeks before college started up again, having transferred to UVa in the interim.  I had another 5 semesters to go before graduation, and I knew with certainty that what I most wanted to do was return to the outdoor field to teach, since that is where my heart was, and where I had experienced the most learning and growth.  College was just something academic to get out of the way before returning to my love of the outdoors.

After College, having majored in psychology, I found a job working for Inner Quest as an intern in their 3 month program.  Again, this was a smaller, tighter community of about 12 people who would live, work, learn, and play together while working with groups of kids for periods of a single day, through a week or more.  Knowing full well that this was another short-term program, I had to give some pause before choosing to let any of these people close to my heart.  Invariably, this group too would come to an end, and we would most likely suffer the same fate as those I had experienced before.  Part of the difference here, however, was that the activities we did were more dangerous, and on many occasions we were all physically responsible for the well being of each other’s life on the end of a rope on a cliff, or deep in a cave under ground.  So any reservations I had about bonding with these people quickly evaporated, and we became closer than I had imagined.

When at last the program did come to an end, the blow was thus all the more devastating, despite having seen it coming from the very onset.  I had a choice of whether to let these people close to me or not, knowing full well that they would leave.  It was not a matter of risk, it was a matter of certainty.  At the end of the program, most every one of the people I was sharing my life with would scatter to the wind, just as they had in the past.  Yet I chose to let them in.  I chose to remain open, to allow them close to my heart, to share my life with them, and  experience the joys and tribulations of their lives as well.

So when that day finally arrived, I felt much pain in my heart.  I also felt a twinge of anger for having allowed myself to form  such bonds of love and closeness with people I knew would leave.  There was loss, sadness, pain and emotional suffering all at once.  But there was also love and joy.  I did not resent any of them for leaving, for I too would be heading down my own path. The love came from the experiences we had shared, and the joy from knowing that as we all went our separate ways, we would each continue to live, learn, and grow in whatever ways that life would bring our way.

Over the years that followed, over and over again I chose to be open with each of the groups that I was fortunate enough to join.  I chose to share, and to love.  In the end, parting from groups has always hurt like hell, but these same groups have also been the largest source of joy and growth I have known.  With each and every new group, there has been that precipice at the beginning when I have had to chose how open to be, how much to reveal, and how close I wanted to allow others to my heart.  Each time, I have consistently made the choice to be open despite what pain might lie ahead because in being open and in accepting  the pain that will follow, I am choosing life — in all its splendor, diversity, and glory.

Let the good times roll.

A Heightened Awareness On The Way To Work…

Driving in, there were wooden posts holding up the guardrails on the side of the road, wet from earlier rains and morning dew. In the beams of sunlight that shone through the canopy of leaves above, they gave off wisps of steam and mist, almost as if still just waking up to the morning light.

Coming towards a stoplight at the bottom of a hill that has a partial view of the upper part of lake Washington, I could see off in the distance a thousand shimmering lights off of the surface of the otherwise open water.

Once at a full stop, I looked in my rear view mirror to notice the beard, mouth, and tongue of the man in the car behind me as he repeatedly took swigs of his orange-juice from a small plastic bottle, and appeared to be gargling with it, oblivious to the possibility that the enclave of privacy within one’s vehicle is actually open to the world through the same windows we use to see where we are going.

Along Juanita Drive, there was a golf course to the right, with patches of white that also glistened in the morning sun, but I could not tell for sure if it was lingering frost, or simply dew from the night before.

Further along on my ride in, there was a simple car dealership on the side of the road, with a multitude of flags waiving in the breeze, all of them lined up with each other, red and white in color, waving in synchronicity as if part of single, larger, more significant dance to the wind.

Approaching the freeway, there was a steeply sloped bank along the side of the road, covered with small grasses and shrubs, the surface of the land riddled with miniature ups and downs the size of beach balls. Together, the hills, the greenery, the dancing of light and shadow, and the hill itself seemed to form an array of every shade and hue of green imaginable, all in an intricate pattern that was simultaneously random, and composed of great order. 

Most of these things and more exist all around us during most every waking moment of any given day. For some reason, however, they all seemed to stand out, screaming to be noticed, even if just in passing as I traveled in to work this morning. For although there have been days like this before, and will surely be more to come, what guarantee do any of us have that we will be around to enjoy them tomorrow?

Breath in.
Look around.
Give thanks to God that for this day, we are alive in the world.

Ben Nevis, Scotland

Ben Nevis — the tallest peak in Great Britain, stands at roughly 4,400′ above seal level.  Since the base of the five mile climb is actually near sea level, hikers get the joy of actually ascending nearly all of that elevation.

The hike starts out simply enough — along a flat trail beside a river, sloping gently upwards towards rocky sheep pastures.  The trail crosses over a sheep gate that people can climb, but sheep usually cannot.  Just in case some of the sheep are exceptionally bright, there’s about three of these gates in all.  After the last one, the trail gains a little altitude, and "Fort Williams" can be seen — it’s not much of a fort now, as most of the rock structures lay in ruins.

We are fortunate enough to be hiking in good weather, under mostly cloudy skies.  The air is cool, and we’re wearing just one layer of polypropylene and our backpacks as we ascend.  There’s another smaller peak called Mt. Meall that stands at 2,000′ and blocks our view of Ben Nevis at the start.  We have to climb part way up that before we can really see our final destination.

However, as we reach about 1,000′, the wind begins to pick up considerably.  At first, it’s just a stiff breeze, but as we continue, it gets stronger and stronger, to the point where gusts begin to kick up dust and literally throw us off balance.

To the sides of this rocky trail, most of the hillside is grassy with a few granite boulders strewn about amidst the high and scattered sheep.  The wind can be seen traveling across the surface of the land by means of watching the waves in the grass.  But seeing the waves coming is little help, for their intensity is now such that we have to crouch down or grab hold of a boulder along the trail to keep from falling over.  Despite the growing wind, however, the skies have not changed appreciably — the clouds are clearly moving across the sky, but it’s generally still great hiking weather.

As we reach the half way point, at the saddle between the Mt. Meall and Ben Nevis, there’s a mountain lake between them the size of maybe two football fields.  On finding a 5′ tall rock wall that was constructed for shelter, we hide briefly from the wind to have some lunch.  Despite all the wind, the hike is actually quite enjoyable, and the wind simply adds to the challenge of the ascent.

Leaving the saddle to continue upwards, we can see a pair of long, very steep waterways flowing through multiple ravines on the face of Ben Nevis.  They are not quite steep enough to be called waterfalls, but looking upwards, we can see that the wind gusts are literally lifting the water out of the stream bed and scattering it about the hillside.

So we continue onwards, striving for the summit against what is clearly going to be ever-increasing resistance.  By the time we reach 3,000 feet, the views of the valley and town below are just spectacular.  This is why we hike these mountains — for "the mountains reserve their best views for those who are willing to climb by their own effort to the summits."  (Rene Dumal)

At this point, we are high enough to see the shadows that the clouds cast upon the hills and valleys below.  We can also see the speed with which those shadows traverse the surface of the earth, going over rocks and hills as if they were nothing at all.  Unfortunately, the clouds are also becoming larger in both size and number, and the patches of sun fewer and farther in between.

Starting upwards again, the added resistance of the wind becomes increasingly palpable — as if we were actually walking through water up to our waists, having to force our legs through something we cannot see.  The gusts, on the other hand, make it more like walking through the ocean in that there are waves that keep coming and coming, almost knocking us off our feet.  Ocean waves, however, come at almost regular intervals, while the gusts are completely unpredictable in frequency, strength, direction, and duration.

On the few cases where the wind is actually at our backs as we climb, we are literally pushed up the mountain.  On more straight and level parts, the added boost of wind power propels us forward with such force as to make us almost glide across the ground like a figure-skater.

By the time we are within 300 vertical feet of the summit, we are nearly touching the ceiling of what had formerly been a layer of stratocumulus clouds.  It’s not clear from where we stand just weather we are ascending into the clouds, or weather they are descending towards us.  In a matter of moments, the answer is clear enough — not only are the clouds dropping down to our level, but they are also rising up from below.  In fact, they are nearly racing up from all directions, up and over boulders on all sides at greater and greater speeds.  I watch in astonishment at how fast, ferociously, and furiously the wind and clouds are traveling across the surface of the ground, as if they are angered to be inconvenienced by this mountain of an obstacle in their path.

Soon, the summit is less than 50 yards away, but it continues to come into and out of view.  It’s as if it were a magical, ethereal destination, trying one final trick in its attempts to allude us.  At this point, we’ve struggled far to long and hard to let something like visibility get in the way of our goal, so we press on, and reach the summit after roughly 4.5 hours of effort.

Now lest we imagine that to be the end of our expedition, victorious in our quest, we still have to get back down again.  Simply turning around and repeating the same experiences in reverse would be far too easy.  So to make the trip a little more interesting, not 5 minutes into our descent, it starts to rain.

At first, it was just a few drops here and there, and we thought that perhaps by dropping below the dew-point, we would return to the relative comfort of the blustering winds.  That, however, was far from the case.  Instead, that gentle rain soon became a deluge, which upon combining with the wind, turned into an extremely cold shower from which there was no easy exit.

We could still see the trail, and fortunately we had extra layers to don for protection from the elements, but it was rapidly becoming less and less enjoyable.

My rain jacket is hooded, and I could hear the pelting of the rain on the back of my head as loudly as were I under a tin roof.  Further, I could actually feel the wind driving the rain into my back as if it were small rocks and stones, which upon turning around, was exactly what they were.  The rain was now hail, and we tried to expedite our pace to lower ground where we would merely get the wind-blown rain instead.  Fortunately, the hail was not that big, and it did indeed subside after dropping a mere hundred feet or so down the mountain.  The wind, however, had merely redoubled its efforts to move the mountain.

There were parts of the descent where the force of the rain on our faces was physically painful.  I had a baseball cap with a long bill on under my rain hood, and only by looking almost straight down at my feet could I protect my face.  I still had to look up now and then to make sure we stayed on the trail.  During those times, I could see sheet after sheet of rain being blown about, including a rather ominous one coming right at us.    Standing on the trail as this massive wall of white water approached at high speeds left me with a sense of being a deer caught in headlights — there was nowhere to go!  On a positive note, the formerly invisible gusts of wind could now be seen quite clearly.

Wave after wave of rain and wind pelted us on our descent, but we continued downward.  At one point in what was a series of steps in the rocks on the trail, I put my foot out to step downward, but gravity simply failed to pull me down against the force of the wind that sought to push me back up.  I’m quite sure it was only momentary, but it seemed to last several seconds as I stared at my overhanging foot, wondering when or where it would actually touch down on the step below.

When the trail happened to turn such that the wind was again at our backs, it no longer provided the assistance in our travels that it had on the ascent, but rather forced us to be all the more careful of our footing on the way down.

By the time we reached the lake around the midpoint again, we began to get cold, and our feet were soaking wet.  We stopped briefly to put on yet another layer of cloths, and pressed forward. 

We could see large groups of people coming towards us who were actually still making their ascent.  Whereas we had traveled through breathtaking beauty on the way up, and only faced the harsher side of the journey on our way back down, these travelers would just be entering an environment that  we could not leave soon enough.

By now, however, we were almost as wet as we were going to get, we still had food, water, and adequate warmth, and were merely trudging through whatever was left of the elements as we began to enter the valley below.

Around 1,000 feet, the wind died down.  By around 500′, the rain gave us a welcome reprieve, making it almost pleasant to complete the final part of our journey.  Soon, we crossed the sheep-gates, followed by the river trail, ending finally at our car.  We were very wet, very tired and sore, and glad that we had made the endeavor to climb Great Britain’s highest peak and return in basically good condition.